Catherine Maxwell

For some reason the snow reminds me of you, maybe its the thought of Christmas im not sure. Im going to miss your jokes about hand shaped objects being handy, im going to miss the red candles and the Nat King Cole, the tree will never shine as bright, the cookies wont ever be as sweet, there is no gift that I could receive that will ever change that, its hard not to write words like this without fighting back the tears. I hope you knew and still know how much I love you and miss you, there are no words that I can write or pray to tell you just that. But i know in my heart that your in a better place and I cant wait to be together again.

your son,

Sean

I miss calling you everyday...just laughing..telling you funny things. I miss you telling me what to do when I don't know...I dont know what to do alot lately. THe flowers are out and the markets are open. I wish we could go for a walk.

Hey Mom... So Thanksgiving is tomorrow. Im supposed to make the potatoes like you always did? How the heck did you always make them so good? I have no idea where to start cause I am pretty sure you made them a different way everytime! UGH. I love you....how am I suppose to do all this stuff without you? I dont even know where all the Christmas decorations are suppose to go. Ive never had a Christmas without you. Whos suppose to wrap presents super late with me? Remember when we were late for midnight mass and the doors were locked and we thought God was punishing us for being late? It was only the side door that opened. Hope you two had a good chuckle about that up there. I love you

I think of you everyday.  Some days I think to myself, "Today I miss you more than yesterday."  Then I realized that I think that everyday.  Everyone says that I will miss you everyday...but nobody warned me that I will miss you more everyday.  I thought that maybe it would get easier everyday...It just gets harder.  The only thing that gets me through is thinking what you might do in the same predicament.  No matter what you had to do you always just got it done.  It seems as though there wasn't any problem you didnt survive.  Your strength is my inspiration.  I know I can be as strong as you because you made me that way.  I can hear you now, "Go wash your face and put on some lipstick!"  Thats what I am gonna go do right now.  I love you.